Oct 8

Square One

In March 2007, I embarked on a diet that helped me lose 15 pounds, drop back down to my high school weight and get my cholesterol down to an all-time low of 155 (from 199). Four years and seven months later, I am exactly back to where I started. Being on the road for three months at conferences where I could not control my dairy and processed food intake (you mean they don’t make green smoothies at breakfast buffets?) shot me back up, and now I have given in and started wearing my fat pants again.

Fat pants are relative: I’m not shopping at Lane Bryant anytime soon. But I know my body, and at this weight, my cholesterol is going to be bad and I feel like I look as if I’m three months pregnant. Also, I feel defeated: three months undid four years of effort and trying (mostly) to eat all the right things. On the other hand, at least I know now what will work to get me to lose weight and stay healthy.

So… I’m back at square one, which is tough. I don’t want to go back to the strictness that I dealt with in 2007, but it seems like it’s the only way. I usually get a physical in February, so that’s my goal: all this fat needs to come off by then. Ideally, it will all be off by Thanksgiving, but we all know what that holiday does to everyone, so I’m factoring in a setback or two.

Wish me luck.

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